Into my sinfulness entered Your Holiness

Sometimes we make decisions & instantly regret them. Sometimes we see a pattern of sin and personal condemnation that makes itself evident in one fell swoop. After a time away this weekend, I had the day off because of a 4 inch blizzard that came thundering into NE Philadelphia. I didn't have the time to read/reflect this weekend like I thought that I would. I didn't spend time yesterday in the Word and found myself in a dark place.

I was doubting & questioning like mad scribbling words & phrases bolded with continual pencil scratchings & wet with tears. Why did it seem the "good" was always out of reach? Why did it seem God wasn't listening? Why did it seem like I was digressing from what God had taught me just a few days prior?

So, I posted a good number of those questions here yesterday knowing full well that my heart was in a desolate place and not being led by the Spirit. I acted on impulse to fulfill a selfish desire to "lash out". Then, I went to class last night, and the topic was "Gender & Sexuality". I was convicted about how I view others, who God is, how God views me, & how I was viewing my situation. So, I came home & immediately deleted the post (something I've never done before). God was gracious to forgive my sin again and remind me of who He is and how He views me & my sin.

I've mentioned Jeremy Horn before, and God used this during my drive on my break to continue to convict/remind me of this same truth.



"Beautiful"
In Your kindness I find, a redemption that's mine
That I cannot explain
How Your love reaches down, through my shame and my doubt
Making my ugliness fade
When my life is a mess and Your righteousness is all I have
You're all I have

Only You can see my heart
Only You can know my heart
Only You can love my heart and say
You're still beautiful to Me

Only You can change my heart
Only You can touch my heart
Only You can clean my heart and say
You’re still beautiful to Me

Every sin leaves a grime, that will darken with time
That I cannot erase
Only You and Your blood, Your compassion Your love
Can make it all fade away

To all I, to all I am

And I will only love You
So write Your name on my heart God
Place Your seal upon me
Knowing my heart’s Yours, oh God

God You search me, God You love me, the way I am
And I am Beautiful
Because You’re Beautiful
You make things beautiful
You are beautiful

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